Eunice Chuah

09:34 pm: FREAKS OUT.
Ok, I haven't. YET.
Bedok Library is SO COLD because of the RAIN. DANG. Fingers froze. Brain froze. T.T I shall study a little later!
I learnt one thing today. To not use a simile or any descriptive language on AGGIE. Makes me want to faint.

Me:
Frozen like an ice cube. Can't wait to go out and eat.

Agnes:
Haha! The usage of simile 'like an ice cube'conveys the coldness and harshness of the surroundings that the persona is (in) and emphasises her intolerance of the cold. AHAHA.

FAINTS.

10:20 pm: 1 week left.
Worrying about the 'A' levels becomes inevitable as it looms nearer and nearer and nearer. Oh wells. Kind of figured I missed a lot of people. (Like Clara! HELLO CLARA! I miss you a lot!)

Dang. Watching TEEVEE.

I must mug a lot a lot a lot from tomorrow onwards!

When it's better to not tell...

09:54 pm: SULKS.
Oh my tian. Another week flew past like that. I am so dead.
I didn't do much this week. I learnt nothing in GP. I slept at the reading room. And I ate a lot.
And I've finally registered my warranty for the things I bought. FINALLY.
I shall pack my stuff later since I usually don't get things done.
Mummy has ben on my MH on Facebook. It's real funny I guess.
I want someone to accompany to Habourfront to get my stupid phone (damned phone, it's NEW) repaired.
The battery can't last a day; it hanged on me 4 times today; WHAt THE HECK.
Ok, I shall start studying now. SULKS.
No one's going to go there with me. I shall use my old phone. RAH.

08:36 pm: A HUGE CUT
On my face. Near my left eye. A humongous cut. That bleeds and swells. That humongous cut.

06:55 pm: Today = Scrapbooking!
Strawberries are sweet.
Lemons are sour.
Bittergourd is bitter.
Scrapbooking is fun.
Green apples are sweet.
Results are demoralising.
Camwhoring is fun.
Eating is annoying.
Chocolate is good.
Math is bad.
Physics is worst.

My day wasn't good.
Till we ditched Yvonne and ran away to town.
And did something so wonderful;
Yvonne will be happy tomorrow.

06:59 pm: Tremors!
An earthquake, definitely. Even before the news confirmed my suspicions. The ground was shaking, the ligths were shaking, the table was shaking; relative to objects, I figured I probably didn't shake. But the dizzy sensation only occurs when I'm travelling and struck with motion sickness and yes, when there are earthquakes. Many times have this been felt. Staying in this house seems pretty cool I guess! Quoted from CNN, the magnitude of the earthquake is 7.9 mesured on the Ritcher scale. And as I expected, occurred around Sumatra.

Pray for the affected, pray for the those caught in disaster struck areas; pray for their safety and well-being, pray for them to live.

Tomorrow's finally my last paper! Physics Paper One. Preliminary Examinations were bad. I know I need to put in far more effort, and I'm going to do so! Till Sunday will I play, after which, I have to hit the books again! I don't want to screw up my A levels, that's for sure.

Then again, pray for the people living in disaster stricken areas, they need blessings even more than I do.

05:57 pm: GUILT-EE.
GEEPEE was so traumatising after I missed the vocabulary questions and scribbled nonsense on them after the invigilator said 'PUT YOUR PENS DOWN'. Those jarring words. ARGH. I was so upset after that. And I seemed to shop forever. Got a new tee from NUM's Founder's Day sale with Aggie! And I got new shorts today. And some skincare stuff yesterday. And a magazine after GIPPY. TRAGIC. I should really mug my ass off for the papers. I'm so screwd for Math. I'm so gonna mug tonight and tomorrow morning. T.T

Thanks Aggie for the cookies! They were GOOD. HAHA.

Oh DANG. GUILT-EE.

Have a Smurf-ey Day! (I wanna go back to NUM and get more things now. GRR. Angry with myself.)

07:27 pm: A BAD WEEK.
To be honest with myself, I haven't been doing as much revision as I'm supposed to since I have already decided to leave quite a number of chapters out. :x I figured that I really need to study in school or I'm going to be doing silly, frivolous things daily. I had too much good food lately, too much for me to watch my diet! Apparently, I am so screwed for the Preliminary Examinations I don't know what I can do to control the damage. T.T

Physics. I wished that Mr Yau didn't make me like Physics so much back then. Resulting in this horrific decision of taking Physics that I have made. It is just not fun. Chemistry isn't fun either. But I never liked it so it doesn't impact me that much. I secretly refuse to touch Physics cos' it is just so dry. I prefer the days when Mr Yau made us write what he says and study just that. As for Economomics, it is so not my thing. I want to just get chapter summaries from someone and then study just that. And math. It's bad. I can't do tutorial questions. I forgot simple things. And after going n hiatus for Chemistry since mid Term 3, my brain is clean of it. And gippy. It's bad. I don't know what to do about it. Simple as that.

Then again, I'm just rambling on about how screwed I am, but doing little or near to nothing about it. I'm so looking forward to flying kites and eating mooncakes and carrying lanterns and playing pool and singing karaoke after the examinaitions. I should really get some work done before I screw myself up so badly I can't go to college.

11:17 pm: Procrastination
Got this off Twinnie's so I can read her answers, and do my own, and procrastinate.

1.This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
Probably.
2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Neo. I'd be married to Jocelyn Neo. :o
3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
Yes. It's 090909. I attempted to tell every contact on my cellphone to make a wish but failed to cos my phone is so lag. I made mine! (:
4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
Outside my house. With Jun Yang.
5.What is the last thing someone bought you?
Eh. I think it's the Cherry Liqueurs my sister got me.
6.What’s something that can always make you feel better?
Silence.
7. What are you excited for?
Nothing.
8. What were you doing yesterday?
At Coffeebean with Aggie!
9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Me.
10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Instant Noodles.
11. Have a best friend?
Yups.
12. Are you scared to fall in love?
Secretly think so.
13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Yups. Wah. I think Twinnie's answer was WAHHHH. (:
14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
I want to punch too many people. Secretly.
15. What time is it right this second?
Time is 1124h. What it's asking I've no idea.
16. What do you want right now?
Nothing.
17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Good question. I don't remember either.
18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
Single.
19. When was the last time you cried?
Not this week.
20.Father or mother?
For what?
21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
Somewhat.
22. How fast does your mind change?
Instantaneously. :x
23. I bet you miss somebody right now.
I do.
24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
No.
25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
Because they want to.
26. Tell me what's on your mind.
How I'm going to screw up.
27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
Studying!
28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Yups.
29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
I don't rank them either.
30. When is your next road trip?
I don't know.
31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Probably. But I don't tell everything to anyone.
32. How's your heart?
Made of gold. :D
33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Yups.
34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
No.
35. What are you planning on doing after this?
Sleep?
36. When will your next kiss take place?
God knows.
37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Nope.
38. Who do you not get along with?
I'm not that nice.
39. What does your 3rd recent text say?
"READ TILL THE END! I sent an angel to watch over you last night, but it came back. I asked 'why..?' The angel said 'Angels don't watch over angels!' " (Okay, I'm not typing the rest. This is the sweet part!)
40. What are you wearing right now?
The ugly sleeveless TJ old PE tee. :D
41.Are you wasting your time on the person you like?
I'm wasting my time on thinking too much.
42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
Good question.
43. What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
Oh I know! I think it's Ethan and Erin cos I saw both somewhere today .
44. How did you feel when you woke up?
OMG. My rashes are gone. :D
45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now
Not really.
46. Do you crack your knuckles?
All the time I get scolded for it.
47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Wishing Yvonne 'Happy Birthday!'
48. What are your LEGAL initials?
CWXE.
49. Who's the first B in your contacts?
Benjy Chow.
50. When was the last time you laughed really hard?
 Not anytime soon.
51. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
As mentioned, I don't rank them.
52. Last awkward moment?
I'm bad at deciding which is the awkward moment.
53. Are you afraid of the dark?
Sometimes.
54. Do you have good vision?
No.
55. Have you ever tripped someone?
Think so.
56. Have you ever slapped someone?
Nope.
57. Are you Irish?
No.
58. Do you use chopsticks?
Yes.
59. Do you have any scars?
Tons.
60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
Live and let live. joel said that. Apparently I'm doing so I think.
61.Do you laugh off embarrassing moments?
Sometimes.
62. Name the last person to text you?
Jocelyn!
63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
Maybe? But based on life expectancy it's OMG no lah.
64. Can you go in public looking like you do?
Ya.
65. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
The sides.
66. Is it easy for someone to make you smile?
Think so?
67. What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
Wake up. (Nice one Twinnie!)
68. Do you fall for people easily?
No.
69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
I think so.
70. Do you miss the way things used to be?
Yes.
71. How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
A lot.
72. Song you're thinking of right now?
Lollipop?
73. Want someone back in your life?
Yes.
74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
I hope so.
75. What's the color of you're shirt you are wearing?
Yellow!
76. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
Yes.
77. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Somewhat.
78. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
I think so.
79. Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
I'm HAPPEE!
80. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
Yeah. Someone who fits THE criteria so I don't have to marry old.

OMG. SLEEPEE.

10:49 pm: Caught in a state of CONFUSION
TEEVEE was really too enticing. I finally ate, just a few minutes ago - Nissin Instant Noodles. Lack of nutrition? Well, it solves my hunger. And it does well in making me like it and eat it even if I'm not hungry. If you tell me Ajinomoto is bad, I beg a differ. It makes me thirsty but the flavour it gives is unique, such that no normal, healthy food can give. And, I like it.

Sometimes when I'm in a conversation, I think a lot despite giving concrete answers. My thoughts and stand do waver, as I wonder with tons of what ifs. It is impossible to deny that acting nonchalant on the outside does a good job in concealing the thoughts within. Then again, thoughts are better off spoken at times. I haven't been putting much, if any, effort into my preparation for the examinations for the past weeks as I really have been thinking far more than usual. Things to go about in my life, and of course the maybes and what ifs.

Perhaps I should really think more about my work than doodads that flood my life. But I can't help it. This isn't a frequent occurrence.

10:49 pm: Under The Moon!
Sometimes, too much is really too much. Like food. Like McDonald's yesterday and Aston's today. Food should really come in proper portions! Overeating is really a sin!

Spending time with Jie Min and May today was really great. We sat under the moon eating mr bean ice-cream and engaged in random talk. It's really hard to do that now that the exams are so near. I'm really glad Jie Min's tuition got postponed so we could spend more time together! :D

The little things you treasure most, you never want to lose them. So hold on tight and don't let them go.

08:21 pm: Not size ZERO.

I really would salute GLAMOUR for covering an article on finally, normal sized lady. Normal issues covered by the media are usually on size 0 models which gives people an ideal, and makes them anorexic. (Disclaimer: I really am not anorexic. Totally unlike what Dicky says.)

The picture at: http://www.glamour.com/health-fitness/blogs/vitamin-g/2009/08/on-the-cl-the-picture-you-cant.html

Lizzi Miller. A normal-sized model who's proud of her body. (And she's pretty!) Really, this is what real people are like. They aren't size 0. (Most of them aren't at least.) Well, apart from that, I still intend to work on my abs and chin-ups. If I have the time.

On a lighter note, I had a really good dinner today. My family was deciding to go to The French Stall or Pu Tien Restaurant and Dad picked the latter. The food is really good. YUM. (I'm going to tell Dicky again that I'm not anorexic. REALLY.)

I did nothing today. I'm waiting for 10 o'clock. For my favorite Chinese show to start. RAH.

I really need retail therapy. Or I really can't concentrate on my work. Oh wells. And I can't sleep well. I think Junyang is right about the point that my quality of life really sucks. D:

Oh wells. I should do some work before 10. After I bathe.

10:28 pm: Family Pack of Unbreakable Combs!
Sometimes, you get more than you bargain for. I don't mean in a negative context, though it is usually the case.

Minah came over to study today. We studied (and talked) till she could break fast before heading for Mcdonald's for dinner. I had McWings and shaker fries. Calories and fats piling up, in addition to the those accumalated from Sempang on Thursday and 85 on Friday. :o I should really work out since I don't think I want to diet. And my irregualr eating habits aren't helping. Oh wells. FRUITS! I should have fruits only. RAH.

Minah and I bought a Family Pack of Unbreakable Combs each. Six combs for a dollar. What a steal. And they are supposedly 'unbreakable'! Well, that's more than what we bargained for in the positive context! (And shaker fries are way more than what I bargain for in a negative context.)

Tonight there's Manchester United vs Arsenal! (Ok, it's tomorrow morning, but still.) Hail Manchester United!

Well, back to my topic. Greed is one of the seven cardinal sins since forever. So is gluttony. I figured that those are still real sins in today's  society cos' that's what I learnt during dinner today. Their food is really more than what I bargain for, really. And I forgot to ask for no salt. -.- Anyway, there are also times when things are pleasant surprises. Like for people who misplace their combs (i.e. ME) and people who break their combs (i.e. Minah), the Family Pack of Unbreakable Combs are really a steal. And they don't look dubious. (:

Well, I only did Measurements today. (How tragic.) But I figured I want to be a chef, that's for now. I want to create The Perfect Meal. So yups. That's it for today, back to soccer!

10:52 pm: When studying is a tragedy.
Preliminary Examinations are coming really soon. I'm still thinking if I should take SATS. Ok, I'm so not going to make make it. At this rate. D:

I am not motivated to work hard. The mugger-mode died down after one week. TRAGIC. I seriously want to know how the mugger-mode stays for everyone else!

Sometimes, no, all the time, I wish that studying is for mere interest. For lifelong learning. To quench the thirst for knowledge. To fulfill our destiny. But no, it is forced upon every individual in order to gain a foothold or at least, survive in the society. CRUEL.

I really don't know if I can make it. This is really terrible. Four more minutes and my show ends. Then I'll go bathe and do my Physics homework for tomorrow. D:

And when your cellphone and lappy screws up on you on not one, not two, not three days but for weeks, you probably don't even want to get them repaired. You simply get sick of them. Like me.

09:05 pm: MANU 1-0 BIRM
When EPL starts, everything else stops. OMG. Manchester United you better don't screw this match as I watch or I'll waste my time. Oh YAYE. Rooney scores! Instantaneous reply. LMAO. Damn lucky.

Unproductive-I-think-I'm studying-but-apparently-nothing-goes-into-my-head days are aplenty. And they are to come to an end! I really must study and not just spend time doing work by copying from my notes. Tomorrow onwards, I'm going to try really hard to study since I take a break every weekend! So there. No more breaks! (Apart from TEEVEE. No matter how hard I try to not watch, I just can't help it. -.-)

Seriously, watcing EPl is like FINALLY, IT IS BACK.

I figured! If my results are really that bad, I'll go do some brainless job like an air stewardess! (Provided they want my lah.) So technically, I'm not in a dilemma about not going to do well for the A's anymore. At least for today. HEH.

TEEVEE. OUT.

06:31 pm: Five Rules For 090809

I came across 'Five Rules For Life'  while waiting for the sofa and coffeetable to be delivered to my house. Out of utter boredom but hey, it's good to set your own set of rules you live by that are meaningful right?

My 5 Rules For Today:

1) Plan ahead.
Plan what you can do, how to spend your time, simply put, plan your future. Being aimless provides no direction in life and it leaves you in a blur almost all the time. Knowing what you want to attain/achieve gives you a goal to work towards. And plan what you can do to achieve it, in order to make it a fruitful journey.

2) Be healthy.
Health is something wealth can't buy. It's important to eat your greens and hit the gym. There's no point working your ass off for the grades/the bucks when you are never feeling well. Exercise keeps you happy and healthy; the adrenaline rush, fats burnt and relieve of stress - exercise keeps you sane. Eat healthily if you don't want health complications to stop you from enjoying the later half of your life.

3) Read and express yourself.
Reading allows you to learn, helps you perceive in different dimensions, and makes your brain work yet relax. Writing allows you to express what seems hard to to express through speech to others or simply to express feelings. Write, draw, paint or whatever. Poems are a good way of relieving the emotions yet keeping them. Drawing is too.

4) Help if you can.
If you can give, give. If you're 3000 other things at home you don't need, donate. Someone else might need them. If you see someone on the street that needs help or someone in the tube that needs the seat more, be considerate. If someone approaches you to ask for help, help if it's within your means. If not, karma might bite back at you.

5) Give love.
Love the people and things around you while you can. By that, I don't mean your iPod or computer. I mean the environment and all. To be able to love is a blessing. If you have a heart, you should always be ready to give some love! Show your family and friends that your care for them - you need them as much as they need you.

That's for today!
And why I wrote those -- Because I have no clear goal; because I've been really lazy; because I found joy in reading and writing today; because I realised how many things I have; because I'm sort of thinking I've no heart.

I'll work towards them and stop sulking for today!

11:16 pm: Sucker for anything that =/= WORK.
Today was fine. Though I slept from 2am to 6am. Cos' I slept like a pig for the whole of yesterday! HOHO.

L and I went to IKEA to eat! Yummy meatballs and chocolate mousse! I had ciabatta too (without soup cos' it'll be too much). IKEA food is YUMMY! :D

Super glue gives me a headache! I don't know how glue sniffers survive cos' my head hurts when I inhale the damn glue (cos' I forgot to turn on the fan -.-).

We have loads of pink little eggs without lame stuff inside? I'm gonna go cherry liqueurs and put them inside! And give one to someone each day!
(That's if I actually make it to Marks & Spencer successfully :x)

Tomorrow's 11/08's photo-taking! NO SCREWED UP HAIR! :D I shall stay in school to study tomorrow! I think I've been lazing around far too much!

I like flowers! I think flowers are so PREEDAYE! (This is so random -.-) I think SUN-flowers are very sunny! Happy flowers!

I think I'm making stupid comments. Oh well. As though I never did? HURHUR. Sometimes I think I really don't use my brains much, even when I do tutorials or tests, or talk. -.- DUMB.

HAHA. My sister just got home! I wonder where she went with who today! :P HOHO. Time to pester her!

08:15 pm: I. Am. Such. A. Pig.
I slept from like 0130 to 1030? Like OMG. I got up to look at my watch so many times. And I told myself '10 minutes more'. A sucker for sleep, that's what I am.  I slept so much the past week, I feel happy. -.- Annoying cos' I haven't started the oh-my-A's-are-coming-I-shall-mug-from-today-onwards streak. -.-

I went out with Twinnie yesterday! I think our study date was a PHAILURE. HAHA. But the whole point is the company right? Ok, I'm broke. Again. This is so annoying. I shall live on fruits for the whole week. Just to save money.

I am having a mask on my face now so I can't do anything normal. Haha. So fun! I'm going to get it off now. My skin feels damn tight. :x

I wanna buy a lot of stuff. A lot, a lot of stuff. Oh damn. I should want to study, not shop. But I can't help it. DANG. I shall sleep early everyday and wake up uber early to study! That's my aim. It fails everyday but who knows, one day I might actually miraculously wake up and not tell myself '10 minutes more'. HURHUR.

Oh. And I need to tan I think. But i don't want my skin to age prematurely. But I don't want to look fair and un-sporty even if I am. But I don't want wrinkles early. But I like my tan I had last year. I should just shut up.

Oh. And HI AARTHI! :D

09:48 pm: I haven't bought a lot of things.
That's the point. I need to buy shoes and a pencil box. I think. I bought a bag with Aggie and one for Minah today! Happy belated Minah! It's the same bag as Bala's! HEH.

OMG. I'm so damn tired. Tomorrow I'm going on a nature hike to Macritchie! That's my PE elective I chose. I can't believe people actually laugh at me for choosing that. DD:

09:45 pm: I want to shop!
I've spoilt my own study plans today. I am so annoying.
And I badly need to shop. I want loads and loads of new stuff.
i.e. Clothes. (Even though I still have I-don't-know-how-many-pieces of new clothes.
I want harem pants. And long skirts. And a jumpsuit or two.
And my sister is back from camp! Today is so fun with her around. HEH.

OKAY. Half an hour. At most half an hour more to do nonsense then down to serious business.
I don't need to screw up my prelims to know that I really have to study that much more for the A's. :/

(Actually I'm feeling deprived. From the lack of retail therapy. But not a single smiley looks deprived for me to want to type there DEPRIVED D:)

Think about it, I haven't been hanging out with a lot of people for a really long time. I feel somewhat guilty but it's not all my fault, right?
Talking to Vibz today was great. Well, he made me realise the above fact. Anyway, I LIKE TALKING TO YOU VIBZ! YOU SEE THIS? :D